This wasn’t a planned post, but I can’t sleep and I need to vent.
I just lost my job, one that I’ve wanted since I stepped foot in Niagara Falls, 2 years ago. I hope by writing about this I can bring some light to struggles of gaining full-time employment in the Niagara Falls Tourism industry.
If you read Prologue: Get to Know me then you are well aware how I even ended up in Niagara Falls to start with.
Long story short, I was hired in December as a permanent full-time front of house position. Which means it was day 89 out of 90 days and I could be let go for no apparent reason.
This is exactly what happened.
In my time there I had only been “dicked” around for hours despite being full time. Management decided to cut the number of people working (to save on operating costs) and thus this cut me to 0-6 hours a week.
Even thought there was a lack of hours, I still made my best of the situation. I had worked my butt off for two years to gain experience to even be in this position at this property.
There I was sitting in a conference room with my Manager and a lady from HR who I’ve never seen before. A company branded envelope sat in front of me as they told me of my termination.
I couldn’t help but feel dumbfounded. I have never been written up and never pulled “aside” for a special talk. There was no hint that I was going to be let go, let alone a chance to improve my work performance.
My work bag was littered from with letters from upper management in recognition of going above and beyond for the guest. My fridge at home was caked in letters from guests who enjoyed their experience because of me.
As I asked them why I was being let go (I’ve never been fired before, I couldn’t help but feel angry) they looked at with me with manufactured sorrow.
They simply stated that “the company is going in a different direction, and I wasn’t the fit they’re looking for”. In this instance, my now ex-Manager fingered the envelope closer to me.
I knew this was simply the company being nothing more than a bunch of cheap f****s. This was merely nothing more than a ploy to save money because they already had no shifts to give me.
But you know what, you lost a phenomenal employee.
The truth is, because of the severe decline in hours I was really struggling financially and still am. The have had numerous suicidal thoughts and many nights of staying up with anxiety or just simply crying myself to sleep. The stress was carrying over to my boyfriend and your seven-year relationship was going in a dangerous direction.
I feel comfort in knowing I don’t have to deal with them anymore. I excited to see what door opens, as this one closes.
In all of this, I just want to thank the supporters of Lidsandtricks.com. I have said it before but I always mean it. The love you guys give me gives me confidence when I’m down and this is honestly my happy place.
I started this blog when I was struggling with a severe concussion and I still am healing from that. Even in recent months, I have enjoyed bringing you content 5-6 days a week while I struggled to work.
I am gracious for the love and support from all of you. Free feel to sound off in the comments below I always enjoy what you guys have to say.